If I Stand...

My name is Andrea. I am a 28 year old geropsychiatry physician assistant who is absolutely in love with practicing medicine. More importantly, I am a Bible believing Christian. I have decided to share my spiritual journey here with anyone who would like to join me. These are my field recordings...

June 8, 2012 9:37 am
"If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world."

C.S. Lewis
June 6, 2012 12:24 pm

Not My Home

I just saw a guy stick his arm out his truck window, wind up, and deliberately hurl trash onto the side of the road. Wish id snapped his license plate. It was a small thing, but it floored me.

I take my stewardship here on earth seriously, but i have been homesick lately. This world is not my home. I am a citizen of a kingdom that can not be seen. I am becoming increasingly restless, and whispering more and more “Come Lord Jesus come. Just come back and end the transgression.”. How long to sing this song? How long will the transgression continue? In all fairness, driving through Detroit every day makes everything worse. But still. This world is not my home. Praise the Lord for prophesy. Praise the Lord for hope and promise to fix my heart on. How much more bleak would my heart be if i did not know that at the end of the story, God wins?

June 5, 2012 11:24 pm
"Dear God, surround me as I speak. The bridges that I walk across are weak, and the frustrations fill the void that I can’t solely bare…"

from “Faith Like a Child”, by Jars of Clay 


I am perpetually frustrated by people around me who don’t pay attention to what they are doing and slop their way through important responsibilities.  I am constantly feeling like if people would just let me handle EVERYTHING, I would pay the heck attention and fix EVERYTHING.  I see easy fixes that I could accomplish in a snap, if people would just get out of my way.  I guess I’m just trying to play God, but my total lack of sovereignty would make me a pretty lousy God.  I am not sovereign over anything.  The real God is sovereign over everything—even over these careless and flaky people.  I need to breath and just let God be sovereign.  


May 12, 2012 7:16 pm
"For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth: And though after my skin worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God: Whom I shall see for myself, and mine eyes shall behold, and not another; though my reins be consumed within me."

Job 19: 25-27
7:10 pm
"Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when He shall appear, we shall be like Him; for we shall see Him as He is."

1 John 3: 2
January 5, 2011 10:59 pm
"…Calvary broke the dragon’s head, and I contend with a vanquished foe, who with all his subtlety and strength has already been overcome…"

"The Servant in Battle", from Valley of Vision
January 3, 2011 11:09 pm
"…Suffer me not to be insensible to these daily mercies…"

"Evening Praise", from Valley of Vision
12:31 am
"…I bless thee that thou hast veiled my eyes to the waters ahead…"

"Years End", from Valley of Vision
What a statement: not just to accept the veil, but to give a blessing for the veil.
December 30, 2010 9:41 pm

E-Mail I Sent to my Bible Study…

Howdy Pilgrims,

Today, while studying the vast display of humidifiers at Meijer, I stumbled upon a 2011 wall calendar called “Paths to God”.  I bought it on a whim, and was relieved to find when I got home that the calendar was in fact about THE path to God, and not ALL paths to God, as I had begun to worry while driving home.  Like a good Baptist girl, I was surprisingly pleased to find that the calendar was not entirely filled with warm-fuzzies.  The year begins with a photo of an endless row of frost-covered trees, and displays the verse 1 Peter 2:21 “To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps.”  I realize that that verse comes from a passage about submitting to masters, but when you pull that verse out and place it in a frozen landscape, it calls you to follow down the path of suffering that Christ walked first.  This does not mean to be lead to certain doom, but to step in the footsteps that Christ left us in the snow as an example of how to cross, endure, and spiritually survive the terrain that causes us to suffer.  It is surprisingly comforting to start the year by thinking of the example that I have been given to follow.  I wonder how many other people out there will spend their January staring at the same scene ;)


Edition:  1 hour status-post hovering over my new humidifier for an hour and a half I am able to breathe deeply without coughing or wheezing.  Mission Accomplished. 

November 22, 2010 10:29 pm
"…From the place where morning gathers, you can look sometimes forever ‘til you see—what time may never know—how the Lord takes by its corners this old world and shakes us forward—shakes us free—to run wild with the hope —the hope that this thirst will not last long—that it will soon drown in the song not sung in vain. I feel the thunder in the sky—I see the sky about to rain—and I hear the prairies calling out Your name. I know this thirst will not last long—that it will soon drown in the song not sung in vain. I feel the thunder in the sky—I see the sky about to rain—and with the prairies I am calling out Your name."

"Calling Out Your Name", by Rich Mullins
November 1, 2010 10:28 pm
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  • By: Ed Kowalczyk
  • Alive
  • 119 plays

"Drive", by Ed Kowalczyk

This album came out in July, but I still find it so incredibly exciting every time I listen to it.  For those that don’t know, Ed Kowalczyk was the lead singer of the band Live (the guys who sing “Lightning Crashes”.)  I’ve been a fairly loyal Live fan since I was a little squirt, and managed to see them in concert a few years ago.  Ed was raised a Christian, but then began studying Buddhism when he was a young adult.  Both religious beliefs appeared pretty frequently in his music that he wrote for Live.  I couldn’t help but continue to listen, because I wanted to find out where he would end up in his spiritual journey.  On his first solo album Alive, Ed makes it pretty darn clear that he has returned to his first love—and yes, I believe him.  When he says in the opening track, “Drive”, that “You are the only one that can save me”, I know he’s talking about Jesus.  Throughout the album he sings of finding grace, drinking from the everlasting love, standing in the light of God, and what I think is the the most beautiful experience that is only found in Christianity: the Holy Spirit whispering inside him.  So good.  So exciting.  So unashamed.  Love it. 

October 8, 2010 1:11 pm
Reblog: I am not, but He is.: Is it just me


or is every version of Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing and Before The Throne of God Above just purely amazing? The best hymns ever, yeahyeahyeah!

Today was awesome, I got to go visit my teacher from last year at his new school and I picked up the letter of recommendation he’d written me for…


Yeah, “Come Thou Fount” is my favorite old hymn, because I like the “flaming tongues above” line.  “Before the Throne of God Above” has become my favorite modern hymn as well.  My church choir rocks the snot out of it.  I think I have both of those in my playlist on my page.

Holy Smokes do you live in Michigan too? Hope College, Calvin College, and Cornerstone College are the 3 big Christian schools in Michigan. I went to Western Michigan University, though, because I wanted to be in the marching band ;) There’s still gobs of Christians at secular schools, just fyi.  You’ll never be alone, wherever you go ;)



October 6, 2010 11:42 pm

Well, I’m joining the Nick Vujicic bandwagon ;) 

Man, this is a good sermon.  Even if the guy had arms and legs, this would still be a really good sermon.  I want to show this to every person who asks the question “why does God let bad things happen to good people?” 

(This is 1 of 4 videos.  The others will probably pop up in “related videos” if you watch the first one.)

2:18 pm
"Because no one is born into this world with a theology, each generation must rediscover the truths of Scripture for itself. In doing so it must labor to connect the unchanging answers of God’s Word with the ever-changing questions of its culture. Sometimes this project is successfully undertaken, and the result is a glorious resurgence of a faithful and fruitful Christian church. Sometimes this project is unsuccessfully undertaken, and the tragic result is false teaching that renders the church impotent to see the power of the gospel unleashed because she either has a false Jesus or is embarrassed by the real one."

- Mark Driscoll “Death By Love” (via tomhagedon)


Wow.  This is a really good explanation for the human race’s eternal reproduction of stupidity.  ~Andrea

October 2, 2010 11:26 pm

For Brian: this is what I was failing to remember the lingo for…

Hey, this is how John MacArthur defines the components of salvation in the back of his study Bible.  I think that you and I think the same thing, even if we don’t have matching lingo.  I’m just sharing his paraphrasing of scripture because I suck at explaining non-medical things…as I found out during my membership interview…that was like a trainwreck, man. 

I think these all kinda happen at the same time.  You’re kinda right though that maybe justification is a little bit ahead of the other two.  

Justification:  justification before God is an act of God by which He declares righteous those who, through faith in Christ, repent of their sins and confess Him as sovereign Lord.  This righteousness is apart from any virtue or work of man and involves the placing of our sins on Christ and the imputation of Christ’s righteousness to us. 

Regeneration:  regeneration is a supernatural work of the Holy Spirit by which the divine nature and divine life are given.  It is instantaneous and is accomplished solely by the power of the Holy Spirit through the instrumentality of the Word of God, when the repentant sinner, as enabled by the Holy Spirit, responds if faith to the divine provision of salvation.  Genuine regeneration is manifested by fruits worthy of repentance as demonstrated in righteous attitudes and conduct.  Good works will be its proper evidence of fruit.  This obedience causes the believer to be increasingly conformed to the image of our Lord Jesus Christ.  Such a conformity is climaxed in the believer’s glorification at Christ’s coming.

Sanctification:  every believer is sanctified (set apart) unto God by justification and is therefore declared to be holy and is therefore identified as a saint.  This sanctification is positional and instantaneous and should not be confused with progressive sanctification.  In progressive sanctification the state of the believer is brought closer to the likeness of Christ through obedience to the Word of God and the empowering of the Holy Spirit.

If anyone feels the need to tell me I’m wrong or crazy, shoot me a FRIENDLY message and I’ll try to explain myself better, because I think that a lot of the above words could be missunderstood at first glance. 


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